And Then You Went to Kindergarten.

aid3 2Dear Aiden,

Tomorrow is your first day of kindergarten. I don’t plan to sleep much tonight. My head is so full of all my dreams and wishes for you. It feels like I have been counting down to this day forever, yet I still can’t believe it’s already here. What I wouldn’t give for just one more year before I have to share you with the rest of the world.

Earlier tonight you told me that you were nervous, and that you couldn’t go in without me. I felt such guilt-ridden joy to know that even now, you still need me. I promised you that I would hold your hand, walk alongside you, and stay there as long as you want me to.

I’ve spent the last five years protecting you, keeping you in this little safe bubble where I’m sure that no one can hurt your feelings or break your heart. You are so excited about this new adventure, so unafraid. But your Mommy is terrified. I haven’t let you see me shed a single tear, but I think you sense it anyway. 

On the other hand, Mommy is so incredibly excited to watch you come home every day with that joy in your eyes that always appears when you learn something new. You’re so eager to learn, and so curious about everything. You are going to thrive in kindergarten, Aiden.

I want you to know that I am so proud of the little boy you have grown into. You have become an amazing big brother. A tenderhearted, inquisitive, and an independent little man. You can bring a smile to anyone’s face, and constantly keep us laughing with your silly jokes that only make sense to you. I am so thankful that God chose me to be your Mommy.

All day long tomorrow, I’ll be worrying, praying, and thinking about nothing other than how you’re doing. If you’re making friends. If someone has hurt your feelings. I’ll hope that you will remember all of the manners that I have drilled into your head over the last five years. Say please and thank you. Yes or no ma’am. These simple little things will go such a long way in your life. But, I know I don’t even have to worry, because I know you will be fine. You’re going to make some awesome friends, you’re going to learn some amazing things, and you are going to kick kindergarten’s behind.

Aiden, my hope for you is that you will always be happy. I want you to be eager to meet new people and to learn new things, not just today as you start kindergarten, but always and forever. I am so incredibly proud of you, Bubba. I love you to the moon and back, times infinity. 

Love always,

Mommy

 

Playing Catch Up.

I tend to let my blog fall under the back-burner when I become busy, which is okay I guess. Some other things should come first. Since my last post, my baby has turned two, I started back at college, and I turned twenty-two this past Saturday.

Aiden had a Toy Story themed birthday in July. I invited a bunch of people thinking not so many would come, but pretty much all of them came, of course. I had a house FULL of people, and anyone who knows me, knew that I was about to lose my mind! So many people in my tiny house and yard, holy goodness. BUT, Aiden enjoyed having all of his favorite people around him all at once.

I took the past year off of school to work and spend as much time as possible at home with Aiden. Best choice I’ve ever made, and finding the motivation to get back in class was difficult. It helped that a lot of my friends graduated this past May, and were preparing to teach this fall. It made me jealous, and motivated me to get my degree so that I can begin teaching myself. I cant wait! Having Aiden put me a little behind, but it’ll be worth it in the long run! It also helped that this time, I’m on my own financially. Gives me the incentive to succeed in my classes since I’m the one paying for them this time around.

And lastly, turning twenty-two on this past Saturday was kind of a big deal for me. Sometimes I feel like no one takes me seriously as an adult and mother. Almost like they still see me as this naive, 15 year old girl. That’s not who I am. I am a twenty-two year old woman and mother. Maybe people will begin to take me seriously now that I’m out of the “party” age of 21. Because that’s clearly what I spent the entire year doing.

Regardless, I’m ready to see what this year has in store for Aiden and me!